WHY?

Joined: 11 Aug 2006 Posts: 1

im 17 ive been self harming since i was about 12 i dont know why i do it. last time i self harmed it was about 2 month ago and i feel like i want to do it again but im sick of being covered in scars, everytime i meet someone new they ask, where have those scares come from and i hate it i was suffereing from depression for about 2 years and i felt like i was over it and i beat it but i feel like it coming back to take over my life once again. someone close to me died recently and im wondering that im just grieving. i feel confused, fucked up, suicidal, and i just dont know what to do. why is this happening to me, im only 17 i should be out with friends having fun but instead im cutting myself and letting depression rule my whats left of my life! HELP ME!